Sunday, October 19, 2008

freedom, grounding

so a lot that i've noticed in classes is this real belief teachers have in the metaphyiscal world; they believe in some sort of spirituality, something outside of ourselves. my voice teacher keeps talking about freeing your energy and chakra through meditation and exercises. a lot of it sounds very Buddhist and new age to me...it's hard for me to believe in it fully, but i guess it also made me realize that in the same way, how hard it is for me to have the faith to just freely believe in Christianity through my senses, instead of my mind.

a big theme i've been coming across throughout acting is that the attention is not supposed to be on oneself, but rather on one's surroundings, and one's inner emotional reaction towards those surroundings. i've been getting better at that bit by bit, but i'm still too self conscious, even when i'm the one doing the activity during the repetition exercise. my movement class has been helpful in that we're taking time to do exercises that free ourselves from being self conscious of our bodies, and to be more aware of our kinesphere, aka our 3-dimensional space. i'll try to use the exercises to make me more grounded during my acting exercises.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

to emo or not to emo

the technique class is heating up with more emotion as we add in activities. we're getting to the point where we have to get more in touch with our true feelings, not just the unguarded reactions we use to deal with things everyday. we see that we use sarcasm, laughter, dismissive responses to avoid conflict and how we really feel about things. another thing is that we have been taking the exercise for granted in that we know it's an acting exercise and act accordingly, instead of treating every new moment uniquely.

it's pretty hard for me to stop being self conscious and just respond to my partner; i hope i'm able to find my true response to it soon enough.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

contact

in the last voice class, we learned that by speaking from certain parts of our body, we create different sounds. tension causes us to speak from different parts of the body, higher pitched voices typically come from the chest. we practiced speaking from our diaphragm, our core, from which more truthful statements come from.

the movement class i had was more interesting than the others i had so far. in pairs, one partner would put their hand on the other partner's diaphragm. the point of this was to have contact in an area where people feel vulnerable; the diaphragm produces breath, which much of our behavior starts with. after a while, we would then look at each other to add another element of contact, topped with saying one person's name to one another.

the experience overall was quite strange; allowing a total stranger to just place their hand on my diaphragm was kind of awkward, and adding each new thing made it weirder. however, it helped me see fundamentally where contact comes from, and how we can open ourselves to be more receptive to other people's behavior.