recently, i figured out a few things about myself:
a) what drives me (hint: i'm definitely not a "like me", that's for sure)
b) my self-consciousness when it comes to my self-consciousness
c) having a holden caulfield-complex
unfortunately, just knowing things about yourself isn't simply enough to shut it on or off. character development is painful, and requires a lot of blood, sweat, and tears. and sometimes it's hard to continually get up and believe that process is worth it, or that at some subconscious level, you want to hold onto those aspects of yourself. i guess that requires a certain measure of faith.