some truths i've been wrestling with recently from countless late night conversations:
- we are all inherently unlovable people. we are flawed. love for one another, in its purest, unadulterated form, cannot exist with simple human capacity.
- a lot of relationships are temporary. and as much as i want to hold on to them, stop time and freeze moments, and life to remain the same as it was, i cannot keep savoring pockets of time over and over again. versions of ourselves are never constant; people are changing continually. memories conjure up idealized visions of a person, when in fact those memories are merely fantasies. but that idea of a person, that VERSION of a person, is gone forever.
- thereby, relationships that end but result in formative periods of life are not a waste of time. they are not a waste of time. not. a. waste. of. time.
- we do not have the capacity for redemption of any sort of regret or mistake that we have made. there is nothing we can "fix" by overcompensating.
- guster is a very emo band. (ok maybe that's not really being wrestled with)
unfortunately, intellectually understanding these truths doesn't equate to successful emotionally grappling with them.