the first day of play was not a good one. i ended up at a table with mostly people who had some sort of clue what they were doing. there were a few softer spots, and i was probably still one of the best players at the table, but it was just hard to get anything going. i was out of position against the tougher players, and couldn't make hands against the weaker ones. a situation that kept arising was when i would open a pot and get 3bet from a player in position, and a 4b bluff by me would commit way too much of my stack to be profitable. as a result, i wasn't really opening a lot of pots and would have to tighten up, which hurt me because i wasn't going to get in a lot of good spots with the fish.
it also didn't help that the two fish at the table were
a) an old guy who played like 5 hands and didn't pay off anything unless he had a big hand.
b) a loose calling guy who seemed to hit every single hand he played...and still managed to only end with around double starting stack. terrible.
the first day was also marred by the fact that i wasn't playing my absolute best. that's what disappoints me the most, that i didn't bring my best game even after trying to prepare myself. there is such a thing as getting too caught up in the moment, and forgetting the fundamentals, and remembering to stick to the game plan. i was playing a bit too fancy in some spots and it ended up costing me. though i'm still in the hunt, and the mistakes i made weren't fatal, every opportunity i have to make the best play needs to be taken if i'm to have any shot at this.
i won't go into specific hands because there's nothing that's too interesting. during the day though, i could feel the heaviness of the moment. there's something about playing at a table where you're not in control, you become more anxious and start forcing the issue when you need to always let the game come to you. it's almost like being a sort of poker martial artist, using your opponents aggression and attacks against them, by adapting and creating. i was trying to force the issue at times, and really i should be calmer, and be thinking more objectively about each situation. it's been difficult.
day 2a is on monday. i have around half average with 60% or so of the field remaining, hopefully i'll fare better. i haven't made a day 3 in five years.